How I'm coping losing my sweet best friend
My sweet friend,
Today is a very, very big day. The kind of day most dog lovers fear more than our own death.
I didn’t get much sleep last night – maybe two hours at best. Work took me nine time zones away from you. I didn’t realize how bad things were when I left. Perhaps, deep inside I didn’t want to see what to you was already obvious.
Your injury took a lot out of you. You are sixteen, that is two times eight, or 112, in human years. That is old for a large dog like you. But you did so well for so long that I almost forgot. You didn’t even have much gray hair, your coat was shiny and the neurologist who saw you last week could not believe how good your teeth were.
When we went to see your neurologist, uncle Nick, and he told us you suffered a serious cervical disc injury, I should have clued in, but at that moment I was not a vet. I was a hundred percent your dad and dads don’t want to see their kids leaving, not for school, not for travel and especially not for good.
When a baggage porter accidentally swung a heavy suitcase and hit your head two weeks ago, first you tried to be brave, but then I had to carry you on the flight. The people of Westjet were amazing. They let us fly home and then one of their employees and a dog lover came to check on you when we arrived. But I could see the sparkles in your eyes had faded away. We knew, considering your age and diagnosis, surgery was simply not an option. I wouldn’t want you to go through that, my sweet friend. You didn’t deserve to suffer, it would be more for us than for you.
Deep inside, I hoped you’d bounce back like you always have. Brave, shiny, sweet and full of beans. You have always been caring, so worried about everyone else. Always ready to help, asking: “What do you need? What can I do for you? What else, what else?!” That was you – Mr. Skai Wantstofly, a border collie at heart, more human than a dog.
When we met, you were holding a bone, growling at all your brothers and sisters, fiercely defending your prized possession. But when you saw me, you dropped your bone, forgot about the growling and came to say hi. That is how the story began.
Yes, it’s true I was told by your people that you’d be aggressive and I should not choose you, but they could not be more wrong. All I needed to do is to get you two bones and teach you, by switching them, that there will always be enough food for you.
Over time, you turned into a Zen dog, our pride and joy, a true best friend! As time progressed, you’ve taught me so much and inspired hundreds of thousands, or possibly millions of dog lovers to take better care of their best friends. You were a true dog ambassador and I was very happy to live in your shadow. You were the star and I was your dad.
And then there were the girls. Boy, you loved girls! You had it pretty dialed, walking on the beach or in the park, laying right at their feet! Girls love boys to be at their feet and you were a master at that. Your success rate was pretty close to 100 percent.
In fact, you were the only male I know who got to sleep in the bed on the first night every single time. That is a skill that many guys would love to possess!
Yes, I know, the Labs and Golden Retrievers were sometimes challenging. They were like the Italians. Loud, rowdy and cordial. “Manger, manger!!! Mamma Mia!!!” For you, they were a little too much.
You were the master of manners and etiquette, after all, your ancestors were British. Many people told me you were the best trained and well-behaved dog and I agree. Your manners led you to be my guide and protector, my service dog to help me with my sleepwalking. Yes, I sleepwalk and have since I was a child. When I was at vet school, I walked through a glass door and almost died. But since I got you, you made sure I was safe. You were my guardian, and I was yours.
Adventures! Oh boy, you lived for adventures and we had so many! There is enough for a whole book. Do you remember when we cashed our air mile points and flew you to Paris in first class? As a service dog, you were able to fly in the cabin and had your own pillow! And there was a woman having a fit because there was a dog in the cabin. If I had an airline, I would fly all dogs first class and put all the anti-dog people in cargo!
It was fun to see my crazy dreams come through. You ran around the Eiffel Tower, you loved that. Also around the Louvre pyramid. Do you remember how we put you in the lap of a female statue in the park and took pictures? You were smiling as if you understood it was funny. That picture is one of my favorites.
There was a point when you were clearly trying to tell me that I was burning out at work. It was you who gave me the idea of living a more balanced life, doing yoga, enjoying nature and spending our winter months in Maui. I loved doing yoga in the park with you because I could watch you sleeping and chasing bunnies.
The first time I brought you over to Hawaii, we flew to the island of Oahu. I took you to the beach, the water was warm. You taught me that anything was possible. You were seven-years-old then.
When you were a puppy, I almost thought you didn’t love me because you were always ready to go for an adventure with your other human and canine friends. But one day, we went to a lake and everyone tried to coax you in the water, but you would not go.
Then I jumped in and in a second you were in the water, trying to ‘rescue’ me. Perhaps my swimming style made you think I was drowning?
Your sister, Peggy was a very special friend to you and us too. Did you know, originally, I chose her, but then she started to run away from me. Obviously, she had a plan. She didn’t want me to leave you behind. Have you ever thought what would happen if I left you behind? I can’t imagine. It was meant to be.
There are not many dogs who get the chance to see their sister or brother every week. I love spending time with my siblings, so I understood how much you loved being with her and you especially loved sleepovers.
I could go on and on, writing about our adventures and crying my heart out because today is a pretty tough day. In fact, I don’t think I’ve had a tougher day in my life and there were some tough ones!
You were barely walking when I took you to your favorite park the other day and I found a little stuffed doggie leaning against the post. I couldn’t believe my eyes because the doggie looked exactly like you, brown and white and he even wore glasses. It was you! I took the little stuffed “you” with me to Norway because I missed the real you so much.
And then there was the phone call. You were not doing well. The call I was the most afraid of. I saw your eyes and knew you were asking me to let you go. You didn’t eat or walk for three days and you were waiting for me to come home.
I spent three hours looking for flights to see how I could get to you faster. Interestingly the same airline that carried us home when you were injured is now carrying me to you.
I am on the way and I know you are waiting. They say the biggest expression of love is when we let someone go despite the pain we feel.
I am aware I could go to heroic measures. I know I could take you through procedures, but that would mean more suffering. I have had many breakdowns today. Walking through the airports, not caring if someone sees me crying. I know I am coming home to help you and it feels like someone ripped my heart out.
I so don’t want to let you go, but I know that the biggest expression of my love is to let you go.
I will cuddle you, I will kiss you, I will lay down beside you and then I will let you go because I love you.
I am writing this letter on the plane to pass the time, ease the pain and be closer to you.
You, Mr. Skai Wantstofly, are the big reason why my life has been so good. You taught me how to be a better vet and a healer, you showed me how to be a better person and that the biggest purpose in life is to help others and spend time with family and friends.
So, when I get to Vancouver we will act like big boys who know that the real you is timeless and limitless and that in our world you will never leave. I could hang on for a little longer because many people do. Often, I have seen people hanging on for too long. I know you loved to run and I really do not want you to suffer, unable to walk and not eating. You are telling me to let you go.
You see, I am terrified right now, but I know I need to be strong. As a vet, I have seen many heartbreaks but I also learned that the biggest expression of love is to let you go my friend, even though it hurts like hell.
Just hang on Mr. Skai, I am coming….
__________________
Note: I arrived in Vancouver at 1 p.m. on Wed. May 17, 2017. When I got home, Skai was waiting on his favorite sofa, a pillow under his head. (He loved pillows) We spent a few hours together. He had his loved ones by his side. He passed away at 4:30 p.m. Pacific Time at his home in North Vancouver, Canada.
Our hearts are broken and it will take time to recover from losing him so fast.
My family and I thank you all for all the messages of support and encouragement.
I promise I will continue to be there for you and your dogs as soon as I can.
With love and gratitude,
Dr. D
Mr. Skai Wantstofly 2001 - 2017
Comments
Monica Hoersch said:
I’m so sorry for your loss, he certainly lived a full and happy life on all his adventures with you. I lost a special girl last year and am still hurting from that, just take your time and the healing will happen. RIP Skai ???
Debbie said:
I’m so sorry for your loss Peter as I know it well. RIP Skai you will be loved and missed forever.
Barbara Larson said:
I am in tears. I had to put my beloved boy down 4 weeks ago. I am lost as I’m sure you are. You were a wonderful dad. Prayers are with you at this most painful time.??
Mary said:
I am so sorry. He was clearly an amazing creature and friend.
Evonne and Abe said:
I am heartbroken. I am so sorry, so very sorry! I just don’t have the words. Big hugs and can’t wait to really give you a hug!
We love you!
Carole Ann Lewis said:
I am so very sorry for the loss of your friend. Your letter was beautiful. Skai had a wonderful, adventure filled life and knows he was very loved.
Mary said:
So sorry for your loss Dr.D. Ski will always be with you. RIP Skai
Terri Spence-Ptolemy said:
What a wonderful eulogy for your best friend, Dr Dobias, thank you for sharing. I am so sad for your loss, RIP Skai. Thank you for all you share about looking after our furry family members.
Jan said:
My heart aches along with yours. Prayers that your grief will be lifted by memories of his love for you.
Sheena cunningham said:
Dr D my heart breaks for you as I read that your beloved Skai has gone to the Rainbow Bridge. We have let 2 amazing dogs go in peace and pain free.
Because of you we are giving our 3rd dog the Dobias lifestyle….wish we had found you before. We know how much pain you are in but you were the best Dad to Skai…you were unselfish and let him go when the time was right for him because it is never right for us! God Bless You and Skai xxx
Suzanne said:
You were perfect together, you are both so very fortunate to have found each other. Peace be with you both.
June said:
My heart is breaking for you. What a sad day, but what a happy full life he had. Thank you for sharing the letter and pictures. Take care, as you know only time will ease the pain.
Hresa said:
I am so truly sorry for the loss of your Skai. Cherish the beautiful memories you have of him, he will always live in your heart. Fly free and rest easy Mr. Skai Wantstofly ❤️
Benito Luigi (w/Mom) said:
We hope these memories will continue to give you strength when you need it the most & that you will continue to find him within his Brightest Star☆Benito Luigi (w/His Mom) Under the Light of His Beloved Brither’s Brightest Star
Eo McNeil said:
Oh, Dr. D….I am inconsolable as I write this. I feel your loss and sadness and it pains me that you are going though this grief right now. It is the worst!
For the past couple of days, I have been checking your FB page for an update. I was not expecting this sad news and I am totally shocked and devastated to read that Skai has left us. Yes…us…He was such an intricatal part of everything you stand for and we believe in.
Please stay strong…this is a tough one. My thoughts and prayers go out to you, your family and the community that is grieving right along with you right now.
RIP, sweet Skai….now you are free to fly!
Hugs, Eo
Ava Coleman said:
My heart breaks for your loss . If I die and am reincarnated , I hope it’s as your dog…
Linda said:
No words can ease the pain of a broken heart. Hope you find peace and comfort. A bond that you had can never be broken. Love is forever. He lives on. ?
Rache Marie said:
No words very heavy Heart ❤️
Carolyn Heimann said:
My heart is breaking for you! I am so very sorry for your loss. I have two dogs of my own, one 14 and our newest Rescue who is 8. I want to thank you and Skai for helping to make their lives better by caring so much about our fur babies. Prayers for your aching heart! Run happy and pain free Skai! Your Dad will see you again someday! Peace and love to you and yours!!!
Lisa Gilmore said:
So sad. Crying and reading your letter with Cale. We both miss Skai so much. Sending you love, peace & light to help through this incredibly difficult time. ???❤️ I know Talus will be there to greet Skai at the rainbow ? ?bridge and have a play.
Tayler muskett said:
So very sorry for your loss. What a life that pup lived <3
Melinda said:
My tears are flowing, my heart his heavy, my prayers are for you, Dr. D. Like so many others, I, too know your ache.
There are no words. I am so so sorry❤️
Diana Lorenzen Collins said:
I am in tears for you!! What a beautiful,eloquent letter..you’ll see your boy again one day! ???
Claudia said:
Very, very sad …..sorry for your loss !!!
Kim Bradley said:
My deepest condolences to you! But what a rich life you both enjoyed together…a bond that death simply can’t destroy! Rest in the knowledge that you did your very best for your wonderful doggie…right to the end.
Ms Penny said:
So terribly sorry to hear about your loss of skai…i am crying with you and wish strength for you as you grieve…
Lynn Bellamy said:
What a wonderful life the two of you had – lots of love, adventures and happy memories. RIP Skai knowing that you left peacefully in the arms of your special human.
Patricia said:
I’m so sorry for your loss. I cried throughout your eulogy as it brought back the pain I felt when I had to put my 14 year old Shih Tzu. I cried for months and vowed I would never have another dog. God had other plans tho and sent me 3 over a 8 month period of time. Nothing can replace the dog you lose but your heart can certainly love again. In my case I have 3, all different and very special and they all have my heart. You will always miss Skai, but the day will come when a dog, probably one different in every way possible, will find it’s way to you and into your heart. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Rose said:
So very sorry for your loss. Nothing better than a dog’s love. Blessing to you and yours at this time of deep sorrow :(
Kim Marks said:
I am so sad to hear about Skai passing from this life. I loved to hear about his adventures with you. what a wonderful soul.
Nicole said:
So sorry for your loss Peter & family.
I know this pain all too well.
Skai will always be looking over you.
RIP Mr. Skai Wantstofly. xxoo
Patti said:
Peter, I am so sorry for the loss of your Skai, such a beautiful loving furbaby. I hope you find peace in your heart.
sue said:
I am so sorry, sad and devastated. We will miss hearing about his adventures, Skai and you both inspired us to do better by our dogs. Deepest sympathies.
Dolores Matthys said:
My tears are flowing… I’m so sorry for your immense heartbreak. It’s a feeling which is all too familiar. Sending much love to you and those close to you. Skai will be by your side, always, just like my Squirt will always be with me. Much love and strength ?
Virginia Yates said:
jenn said:
A day of tears that keep flooding….as Chris Cornell sang for us all…..
“Scar On The Sky”
As I fall I leave this scar upon the sky
A simple note for you, I’ll wait for your reply
And in your answer I’ll regain my will to try
So hover in the diving light
We will rip the night
Out of the arms of the sun one more time
Close your eyes and we will fly
Above the clouded sky
And over the dumbstruck world we will run
In these hills they wash the golden grains away
To the valley under all of this I lay
And may you dig me out unearthed and saved
So hover in the diving light
We will rip the night
Out of the arms of the sun one more time
Close your eyes and we will fly
Above the clouded sky
And over the dumbstruck world we will run
We can rip the night
Out of the arms of the sun
A blood red feather leaves a scar upon my hand
No longer scrounded like a painted bird on a fan
So hover in the diving light
We will rip the night
Out of the arms of the sun one more time
Close your eyes and we will fly
Above the clouded sky
And over the dumbstruck world we will run
We can rip the night
Out of the arms of the sun
Natasha Thompson said:
So sorry to hear this. Well done for giving him a beautiful life.
Janine said:
I’m heartbroken for you….it is the hardest thing losing your best friend, your little brother. He is waiting for you on the other side
Barb said:
Sending my deepest sympathies at this very difficult time. Hope it helps to know that Skai will be waiting for you at the Rainbow Bridge where he has been made whole again and not suffering. RIP Skai
Kelly said:
So sorry for your loss. I lost my best friend in November and didn’t want to see him suffer either. Skai was very lucky to have you. Take care.
Jody Freeland said:
It is truly a sad day. I’m so sorry for your loss. I really have no words, but I share my tears with you and your family.
Rita Nixon said:
I am so very sorry for your loss…RIP Skai..Peter remember the good times and know that love never dies….Skai lives on in your heart…he will never leave you…
vicky said:
I am so so sorry to hear this terrible news. I shed tears for Skai’s passing and for all of his family and friends.
rozanne said:
I have felt so fortunate to find your website . To see that a dog could have a good life with health and vibrancy. I almost list my dog last year to a serious operation so I have great empathy in your loss. I am sending love and support in my meditations and prayers during this difficult time. We are a world community here to comfort each other in the adversities and changes in life. Blessings to you.
Mary-Lyn said:
I’m so sad to read this. My heart hurts for you and the rest of Skai’s friends and family.
So sorry.
Diana Lorenzen Collins said:
Dr.Dobias,
I’m POSITIVE you will see Skai again!! (I am unable to edit my post above of ACCIDENTAL ???‘s) …grieving for you right this minute.. :-’(
Joanne said:
I am in tears reading your letter to skai. I am so sorry for your loss Peter. I just walked by your house and saw cars but no lights on in front. I know what you are going through from past experiences but this is so fresh and heartbreakingly painful. I think that when it’s time to leave, animals know it, and they cross the rainbow bridge in sheer pleasure but to us it’s a burden we have to live with for a long time before it gets easier. My heart goes out to you. It’s a very sad time. Hugs, and love
Bonnie said:
So sorry to hear of your beloved Skai’s passing. I know you loved him BIG! May the many wonderful memories of times you shared with him bring you peace.
Samantha said:
I’m sorry for your loss. No words I can say will make things better. The love and healing of our animal companions is unconditional and timeless. I see as an empath and psychic bonds beyond explanation. I’m weeping as I have read your words and send Light and Love your way.
Pam said:
My heart hurts for you as the pain of loss is still fresh in mine. What an amazing life you gave him and what amazing gifts he gave you in return. I always say, I did a lot for my boy in the end but I would do it all again in a heartbeat because of all he did to take care of me.
Debbie said:
So sorry for your loss Peter & Dean, I am privileged to have had the opportunity to know Skai, he was truly an amazing dog. My heart breaks with you! Forever in my heart.Debbie Benson ?
Joan billesberger said:
My Dear Dr. Peter,
the best vet in the world. My heart goes out to you. A big hug from me and Adera. You have always been there for me and your other clients and friends, now it’s our turn to support you in your grieving. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Joan
Kathleen Smith said:
I am deeply sorry for your loss. Skai is a beautiful soul and I can feel your love for him every time I read your posts; it warms my heart to feel such love. May fond memories ease your pain. This is a lovely letter to Skai and I’m crying as I read. My sweet boy got his wings last September and he was the world to me as well. You had a very special relationship and be very proud of the wonderful life you provided to Skai. Big hug!
Michelle Gurney said:
Thank you for sharing such an emotional, true, tender, raw reminder of the love that we give and get from these special four legged blessings that come into our lives. There are no words to express how sorry I am for your loss. My heart is very heavy with learning of the passing of Skai but it is also refreshed in reading of how much love this boy brought into your life and I am sure many others.
Debbie said:
So sorry for your loss Peter & Dean, I am privileged to have had the opportunity to know Skai, he was truly an amazing dog. My heart breaks with you! Forever in my heart.Debbie Benson
Barb said:
I am so sorry to hear about your baby. He sounded like an amazing guy. When I first read about him it gave me hope that my boys would be around for several more years. I had two German Shorthair Pointers. I just lost boy Chief on May 7th when they found a tumor that ruptured in his spleen. He was only 10 1/2. My hearts aches because I miss him so much. My heart,aches for you as well. I’m so blessed to still have his brother Wilbur to help me through this. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Colette Okamoto said:
I am deeply sorry to hear of your loss. Skai was an inspiration to me, to the point that I changed the way I cared for my babies. I wanted them to be as healthy and happy as he was. I am going to miss his blogs and adventures. Rest in Love Skai Wantstofly!
Carole Johnston said:
your loving letter is so beautiful – sad to Hear of Skai’s passing – sending love and strength at this most difficult time -
Cathy said:
So very sorry for your loss. It’s been 5 years since my Hudson passed. He was a collie husky x and 7 years since Maguire my malamute passed. They were both my rock in bad times and the most fun to just hang out with all the time. I was so fortunate to have had them in my life and would have them both back in a New York minute…..May he RIP and may you, and all who had the pleasure of knowing him remember him with love. Stay strong.
Maureen Russell said:
I am so so sorry to hear about Skai. I’m crying as I write this. He sounds like he was one amazing dog. I loved it when “he” would post his letters. Truly a very sad day. My thoughts are with you
Lana said:
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beautiful companion, Skai. I’ve loved reading of your adventures over the past few years and was sorry to hear of the airport incident that set him back.
He couldn’t have had a more fulfilling life, and I’m sure he’ll be waiting for you to reunite at rainbow bridge.
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard”
My sincerest condolences…
Bet Turnbull said:
God sent Skai to you. To be your best friend, your teacher, your guardian, to show you love. In return you were his DAD, his friend, his guardian and returned that beautifu love to him. My heart likewise is broken along with you. It is so important to think about what you had together. Just picture the peace he is experiencing in Heaven and will continue to be watching out for you. You have come full circle and will be together again one day.
Bless you. One day you will realize time is healing. It will happen.
My heart aches for you, and all who knew this beautiful friend.
Micki Ashurst said:
My heart is absolutely breaking. I’ve known Skai since he was a puppy, and loved him very much. And I’ve always been afraid of you losing him, knowing your closeness. Having lost our first soul mate Montana and many things has taught me that there is no greater heartbreak. Thank God you could be there with him at least for his last few hours. I’m forever grateful to have known him, and now I wish that you can find consoling and peace with your loved ones and in your memories. Our hearts are with you.
Linda Dallas said:
Peter & family: I’m in tears reading the news & your letter. Skai, you were very special to those of us lucky enough to meet you, we will see you again.
Jocelyne Monette said:
Oh Peter …. I am so sorry ,,, I dreaded reading this post .. I cried as I read your words as I can only imagine your deep deep sadness and loss. The grief journey you are embarking on is a testament to the unconditional love and bond shared with Skai. One day, the cloud will lift and the memories will not only provide you peace and serenity, but your heart will smile at having known such a beautiful soul.I want to leave you with a favorite quote of mine by AA Milne / Winnie the Pooh:“If ever there is tomorrow when we’re not together… there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we’re apart… I’ll always be with you.” Sending you hugs and light …Godspeed Skai WantstoFly!!
Cindy said:
I’m very sorry to hear about Skai.
I let all of my dogs go when they let me know it was time. Only one had to die on his own because the vet refused to believe me when I said he was dying.
All of them are still close in my heart.
Peter Calandra said:
Very sorry you had to let Skai go. I know how much a part of your life and happiness he was and that’s what makes it so devastating. With each dog we love and then help pass it gets harder instead of easier. I suspect that it’s because from each dog we learn valuable lessons and those lessons accumulate along with our devotion to the canines. I never thought I could give my dog a syringe of insulin every 12 hours but I do, and I know his raw diet and your powders are sustaining him 2+ years after his diagnosis. Peter, I hope you take some time for yourself to grieve your boy. His love will never leave you, in fact he is now part of you. Blessings to you and your family.
- Peter
NICOLA DeSousa-Heide said:
What a beautiful heart felt letter. I am sorry for your loss. Until you meet again….
Trudee B said:
Your love letter to Skai is awesome. He waited for your return and how blessed you were to comfort him. That shows how much he loved you in return. He knew you would grieve more deeply if he didn’t wait. Love endures for eternity. I believe you will be united again, in time. That is your wish and his.
Sharon Shaw said:
So heartbroken….Dr. Dobias, please know that Skye is free and happy, and looks down at you with love and gratitude….
Much love,
Sharon in Miami
Tammy said:
Dear Dr. D: During this last year, I had to say goodbye to both of my dearest friends, aged 16 and 17. It was as you say
the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. A kind friend gave me a card with this written on it: “It came to me that every time I lose a dog they take a piece of my heart with them, and every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are”.
Gail Simms said:
I am heartbroken for your loss of your best friend. I know Skai will always be with you tucked in your heart and guiding you through the rest of your life.
They are truly Angels amoung us.????
Gretchen Mayer said:
My ❤️ goes out to you. Skai is an inspiration to me for my 10 year old Coco. Thank you so much for all you shared.
Wanda and Graeme said:
We are both crying for you and Skai. We will miss the adventures. We’ve been reading your adventures for so long we feel a part of your lives. Our Aussie is now 14 and not doing very well and after reading your story we realize that a decision must be made for his best interest. I know we hold on too long hoping for a miracle but in reality it is inevitable. Time will heal and don’t forget, we all get to see our best friends some day at Rainbow Bridge.
Audrey Vlasvich said:
Dear Dr. Peter, I am very sorry about Skai’s passing, he was very lucky to have had a wonderful life with you. I was frequently checking your site, looking for updates on Skai, and so sad to hear this news. I am so glad you were able to get home to him. he knew you were with him again. I’m sorry for the pain you are in, I know it’s intense, I’ve been there. God bless you all.
Rebecca Bickerstaff said:
Times like these, words are so inadequate. Their unconditional love goes beyond physical realms, and remains beyond those same realms and more. I often wonder, who is really the Guardian? Godspeed Skai!
Jennie Watkins said:
Dear Dr. D. Thank you for telling us all of Mr. Skai’s passing. My heart breaks for you. It is clear Skai was a very special being. Take care of yourself and know others are thinking of you and Skai.
Thanks to both you and Skai for the work you have done.
Steve said:
Hello Dr, I am about to lose my Rough Coat Collie named Sydney and I am having a tough time to know when it is time, I am hoping she will tell me . I have followed you and Skai for many years and had good luck with your products. I am very sorry for your loss and having a very tough time here in Victoria. My Collie still wants vto walk everyday. Steve
Georgia said:
Oh Dr. D, I am heartbroken for you. Tears are rolling down my face as I think of you and Skai and those who love both of you. As soon as I discovered your website ,I could feel through your writings just how much Skai meant to you, just as my Ari means to me. My dog is ten and I follow the same way of taking so much care of him as you did for Skai Thanks to you and Skai , I think he still has many good years. I know this might sound crazy, but when you are at your stillist you will feel him around you. That is because he is around you.These are such special souls. Both of you have helped so many. He is there to help you get through this , if you listen in your stillness. RIP Skai ,one of the best dogs I never met.
Tanya said:
Dr. D and Skai…..the bond you shared can never be broken, not with death, nor sorrow nor pain. You will meet again and soar together. He is waiting for you in the Happy Hunting Grounds……
Carol Wallach said:
Heartbreaking news of your beautiful pal Skai. He is in many people’s hearts form your posts. I’ve lost my oldest dog and cherish the times we’ve had together. but I have always gained another dog at some point. You and Skai have been very inspirational, I know he’ll always be with you.
Ulla ogasawara said:
I am just heartbroken . I was praying that Mr.Skai would heal . I am crying now , both for you and for myself .Reading your letter brought back the memories of my dearest Standard Poodle who died in my and hubby’s arms 2 1/2 years ago . He was 11 years 9 months old . I have never felt a sadness and loneliness that I felt that time …..I can only say I am so so so sorry for Mr.Skai passing away . Sincerely Ulla. ( I have a little dog , Marc 9 yo who helps me when I am sad )’
Tina said:
I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Skai. There is no greater love than our dogs and when they pass the pain is at times unbearable. I have tears thinking of what you are going thru but the years of love and devotion and memories is priceless . You were a wonderful dad to Skai and Skai had wonderful life.
Brenda said:
So sorry to hear about the loss of your boy! I too know the pain of losing a fur child…my miniature Schnauzer passed away at the age of 13-her name was Jaqueline. She too waited for all the family to come home to say goodbye to us. She could barely walk but she climbed up onto her favorite spot on the sofa-she loved sitting next to the window to scare away the squirrels that would dig up our plants. She protected us in every way she could. Saying goodbye was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do but like you said, it’s not all about us..we have to think of them and take care of them as much as they took care of us. My heart is with you and your family
Brent, Amanda Our 3 dogs Molly,Maggie and Tazz said:
Sorry for your loss. Hope the pain of his loss subsides and happy memories help to soothe the pain.
Krista said:
I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your dear sweet Skai. My heart is breaking for you. My thoughts and prayers are with you and everyone who loved him.
Thomas and Sandra Gebhart said:
Annette said:
I’m so very sorry for your loss. Our pets are such a part of us. Our 17 yo whippet Ksee is starting to fade and it saddens me so. Take comfort in your many memories and know we are grieving with you.
Anjani Edwards said:
I cannot make it through your letter to Skai. I am crying for you and your immense loss. For my own losses, for anyone who has loved and lost a beautiful fur-friend and for the fur creatures who have no one to love them as surely as you loved Skai. I am so sorry.
“You think dogs will not be in heaven? I tell you, they will be there long before any of us.” ~ Robert Louis Stevenson
vera said:
RIP BABY DR SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS VERY HARD TIME. .BEAUTIFUL MESAGE RIP SKAI TAKE CARE WE ALL NEED YOU
Diedre said:
His spirit will always be with u
❤️??? Now and forever
Nancy Robertson said:
I am so very sorry for your loss. I had so hoped that once you got home Skai would improve. The loss of a best friend like Skai is unbearably painful. But he will forever live on in your heart.
Ella said:
I’m so sorry for your lost. R.I.P Skai. I lost my Elly just a month,still hurting and is difficult time.
Be strong. Skai – He will always be with you.
Patricia said:
My prayers go out to you Peter, What precious memories of you both to have and to hold in your heart forever.
Love’n Light, Patricia,
Rio, Si & Jaia
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xCGibIVp3Q
Eleonora said:
Dear Dr D,
I am so sorry that time came and one more time so grateful you shared this with us.
I had a similar relation with my passed away doggy : he pulled me up, made me discover I wanted and could do better, saved me so many times. He was and still is my dear best friend, and like you I felt that nevertheless th I had to not be selfish, let him go that day, and promess him I’ll keep going, because I could see in his eyes he was worried to let me. So I put my eyes in his eyes, told him that thanks to him I was stronger, that I’ll keep going and well, and wanted him now to just think of him because made me strong that
Wendy Galt said:
Peter and family, I am so sad and sorry to read this post. I have been thinking about you as I read your post, that you were heading home. I so hoped the outcome would be better. Thoughts are with you at this difficult time. You have so many great memories to cherish.
Jana said:
I’m deeply sorry for your loss, and although I’m just someone who follows your blog, I’m grieving with you this evening. We lost our beloved mini-schnauzer unexpectedly, nearly 7 years ago now. It still hurts though I firmly believe she’s in a far better place and I know we’ll see her again. Perhaps she and Skai are enjoying a game of fetch or something as I write this. I’m local to you so if there is anything at all that I can do please don’t hesitate to reach out. God bless xxxxxx
Jan I. said:
The moment I saw your facebook post, my heart stopped. After reading your letter, my heart has broken into countless pieces.
I am sooo very sorry to hear the news of Skai….so very, very sorry.
You provided such an amazing life to Skai. I am so very sorry….so very sorry.
From Harry and Beulah carr said:
Dr Dubias,we are terriably sorry to here about the accident and death of Sakai,it really break our heart, we lost our ten year old lab last year and it is very heart broken so we know just how you felt our deepest sympathy to you god be with you.
Phylis Brown said:
This is so heartbreaking, so many tears are being shed all over the world tonight. My deepest condolences to you Dr.Peter and your family and all those who loved Skai. Thank you so much for sharing your adventures throughout the years. Rest in Peace dear Skai.
Olivia said:
So very sorry to hear what has happened. We know the pain, but yours is doubly so with Skai being a service dog. Please accept our condolences and hope you know Skai will be watching over you.
Wayne Spurgeon said:
So Sorry for your loss – It hurt so much reading your letter but also a blessing to feel so much love – This reminded me of my love ones that have gone beyond rainbow bridge – The pain crushes me when i must say by to my loved ones but i always wind up with another in my life because to live without my companions is even a greater pain. I now have Miss Maggie (8 years) & Mr WolfStorm (1 & 1/2 years) – But i still cry over Lord Falcon & Lady Princess & Sheeba – I feel your pain, Its a pain no human can cause me to feel
Heather said:
I was so sorry to hear about Mr Skai, my heart aches for you. I was in tears reading your letter as I can tell how much you loved your wonderful dog. Thank you for the courage to share those feelings. I often look at my 10 year old Vizsla with his greying face and think “please don’t ever leave me”, he is my soul and heart just as Skai was yours. I am sending you wishes for love, peace and comfort…
“all you have loved in your life and have been loved by are eternal and true” …
Denise said:
I am sorry for your heartbreak. Losing the animal that we love most in life is a painful journey, that time alone will ease to a degree. I hope that your journey is filled with love, peace and memories.
Gail Bright said:
To Skai’s family,
Peter and Skai you have been heavy on my heart for the past few days. So sorry for your loss. It truly is a pain like no other and they live in our hearts forever till we meet again. I sit here sobbing because I know the pain. Blessings my friends and as I look at your pictures what a wonderful life you had together.?❤️
Eleonora said:
Dear Dr D,
My deepest and warmest condoleances.
I am so sorry that time came and one more time so grateful you shared this with us.
I had a similar relation with my passed away doggy : he pulled me up, made me discover I wanted and could do better, saved me so many times.
He was and still is my dear best friend, and like you I felt that nevertheless th I had to not be selfish, let him go that day, and promess him I’ll keep going, because I could see in his eyes he was worried to let me. So I put my eyes in his eyes, told him that thanks to him I was stronger, that I’ll keep going and well, and wanted him now to just think of him because he made me strong enough for that too.
All my childhood and life I took care of others and Jerry was the one taking care of me till the last drop of his incarnation.
I thank him for that too, hold him dear in my heart for that too : I deserve me too to be loved like I love others.
Your letter to Mr Skai made me remember my Jerry, my love for him, his love for me, made me love even more your Mr Skai and you for being a such human being in this crazy world.
Thank you, love and gratitude,
Eleonora
Stacey said:
A beautiful tribute to a wonderful friend from a devoted owner. Run free over Rainbow Bridge Mr.Skai x
MONIKA BARBOSA said:
I’m so sorry for your loss! I have once suffered the same and know exactly what you feel….there are no words to describe..
crying for you .Good memories and a forever love in your heart and soul.
Stephen Crouse said:
Greetings brother Peter,
The words"Today is a very, very big day. The kind of day most dog lovers fear more than our own death." are a tough reality as I have 36 produced because I want fertile dogs that have found the darndest ways to have the girls or meander around the boys. I had hoped to find homes when the population was smaller but have a tremendous amount of wet noses and licks as the pack leader. Even now a half a dozen continue with the incorporation of your fermented vitamins into their diet.
As the inevitable if I live long enough happens, I can relate to your commenters who had no words. The severance from our unconditionally loyal canine friends is increasingly hard on me; I know it is not what God intended. However, death entered creation with man’s sin, and this deeply hard part of being a man is to be a man.
Thanks for sharing what God has given you. May his love distract you always and especially during this time of “the strange” pain. With love from a distant friend in Tennessee, Stephen
Manuela Gomes said:
It’s even hard to write something after reading this beautiful letter. I am in tears! Skai lived the best life a dog can live and taught not only you but all of us. He will be forever in our hearts. The one and only ambassador <3
Sharon said:
So sorry for the loss of your precious furchild .I had to say goodbye to my sweet Sheena on 14/9,she lost her battle with cancer.I share your pain.
Jill Newby said:
I thought I could not activate your link to access this letter then after several tries I am reading about your loss. I never had the privilege of meeting Skai in person, but I certainly knew him from your newsletters. I am sitting her at my computer with tears streaming down my face as I write this because I know so well how difficult it is to say goodbye to a beloved companion. Skai was the best, and so were you for Skai, and he passed on at a remarkably old age knowing he was well loved. We should all be so lucky! My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time. Jill
Kimberly said:
Your journey with Skai is one that touched us all. Your loss is our loss and we grieve with you. Thank you for sharing the beauty of your heartfelt letter.
Pamela Lang said:
I am so sorry to hear of your loss . It is a very difficult time just know that you did the best you could for him and he did his best for you . Rest in Paradise Skai Wanttofly …
Alexis said:
It is 1:29am here and the title caught my attention and I said no not your dog. As I read this my eyes began to water as I really don’t know what to say. O am.somsorry for your loss and will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.
Olivia said:
You and Skai have been an inspiration to me. All I want is for my dog to live a happy and wonderful life such as your Skai did. This letter has me in complete tears and this is just proof of how many strangers lives he has touched. Rest in peace Skai. Thoughts of you and Skai from California.
Livia said:
Dear Peter a Dean,
I just picked up my phone and saw two words…‘sad news’….and I was terrified to open the whole email. Even as I’m writing this, those tears won’t stop rolling down my cheeks. I’ve never met your Skai but I feel like I knew him so well through your words Peter and through Dean’s pictures. I miss him so much already and my heart is breaking for you.
I found this poem from Nayyirah Waheed and as I was reading it, I felt a tiny light in my heavy heart…
‘the hard season will split you through. do not worry. you will bleed water. do not worry. this is grief. your face will fall out and down your skin and there will be scorching. but do not worry. keep speaking the years from their hiding places. keep coughing up smoke from all the deaths you have died. keep the rage tender. because the soft season will come. it will come. loud. ready. gulping. both hands in your chest. up all night. up all of the nights. to drink all damage into love.’
I am so very sorry…
I miss you Skai❤
craig larsonv youhad. said:
So sorry for your loss. Knows the luv you had/have for your best friend .I am the same way. .All the best!!!
Michelle Patterson said:
So very, very sorry to hear that the best vet in the world has lost his so loved dog.
debbie sutherland said:
Dear Peter
I remember Skai so well and your beautiful bond with your boy.
I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I too left on a trip not understanding how bad Kailey was doing and we had some hours together when I got home. The pictures of you and Skai are amazing and you two were meant to be! You had so many joyful times together-pure love.. Thank-you Skai for teaching Peter so much so he could help my dog Kailey. and me. xo
Barbara said:
I feel so sorry for your pain losing your beloved dog Skai. I feel your pain because I lost my Tibetan Terrier almost 14 years old in Feb. You get so close to them and your heart beaks when you lose them. It’s true they let you know when they want to go. You have to love them that much to let them. I pray that all the good times you had with him will give you peace and joy. Take care and bless you for being such a wonderful vet and a human being.
Diana said:
I am crying so much at your raw and beautiful letter to your boy, Skai. You were both incredibly blessed to be paired together on this earth. May you be surrounded by those who loved you both for as long as you need. Cry deeply and long for as long as you need. So many of us followed the adventures of you and Skai and we will continue to hold you in our hearts as you walk this hardest of roads: the incredible loss of your best friend, Mr. Skai Wantstofly. So glad he waited for you. What a blessing.
Elizabeth Coles said:
I am so so sad for you and the way it all happened. He had such a wonderful life with you. I feel for your pain. Your website taught me and helped my lovely old lady Sandie who,is now 15 years 8 months a collie GSD cross. You taught me and her vets her liver caused her 3 am panting. Without holistic vets like you she wouldn’t be here. I hope so many kind remarks help your anguish at this time, you are not alone.
Magdalena said:
I am so very sorry Dr Peter for the loss of your best friend. Skai was every dog lovers friend and inspiration. He was and will always be the part you and us-your friends. We lost Buzz- BC- couple of years ago and it still hurts. They leave us but stay in our hearts forever
Maria Belrose said:
There are no words… Good Speed Skai… Run free and whole again at the Rainbow Bridge.
fionacrossfield@shaw.ca said:
very sorry for the loss of Skai.i lost my Sky last year at 15 like others of mine that have gone before him. He is always with you. I think the best thing I ever heard is the little boy who said to his dad that was sad at the loss of his dog so early is "Dogs don’t need to stay as long on earth as humans because they have learned what humans need 100 years to learn and dogs only need 10 years ’ then they can go to heaven.they are so wise.I have learned so much about life from dogs that I will be forever grateful for the little time I have had with all my dogs.Peace be with you and Skai
Pat said:
So deeply sorry for your loss of Skai and for your heartache. Mr Skai was a very GOOD dog.
Rose said:
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend, Skai. I so feel what you you are experiencing as I have lost my sweet and dear furry friends after many years of love and devotion. Thank you for sharing your love for Skai. Blessings to you.
Cathrine Chartier said:
Dr. Dobias,
I cried reading your note you wrote to Skai, I"m so sorry for your loss. I believe Skai will always be walking by your side…Energy doesn’t leave. There will be moments his presents will be stronger than other times. Or you’ll have a wiff of his smell….Just know he’s one of your guides…if your in need of guidance, Know he’ll be there for you…
.Blessings
Cathrine, Peek and Lucy Chartier xo
Corrinne said:
I am so very sorry, I wish I had some words of wisdom to help soothe your heart……..Mr Skai loved and was loved everyday of your lives together. You were both blessed!
Amanda Richards said:
My heart goes out to you Peter!
Sending you love and hugs!
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craig larsonv youhad. said:
So sorry for your loss. Knows the feeling of loosing your best friend! Knows you are remembering all the good times as I would/did!!! All the best
craig larsonv youhad. said:
So sorry for your loss. Knows the feeling of loosing your best friend! Knows you are remembering all the good times as I would/did!!! All the best
Hilary said:
Thank you for sharing such beautiful memories. I can’t imagine how difficult it must me losing your wonderful friend and companion. Mr Skai will always have a very special place in your heart and will be with always in spirit.
Thinking of you Peter.
Rose said:
I am so sorry for the loss of your friend, Skai. I so feel what you you are experiencing as I have lost my sweet and dear furry friends after many years of love and devotion. Thank you for sharing your love for Skai. Blessings to you. Skai will always be with you.
Cheryle said:
May peace be with you all during this most difficult time.
David Borgula said:
Dear Peter,
I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Skai…my heart goes out to you. I have a friend, one of the most gifted writers that I know. Chuck wrote this very moving piece about his dog, Mugsley and I thought I would share it with you…I hope it helps in some small way.
David
MUGSLEY AT 15
Boyfriends don’t come my way too often (Yentl: “People are blind.”), but I’ve had my dog Mugsley for eight years now, and I think sometimes that I’ve learned as much about love from him as I would having had a hunky (or even semi-hunky) man in my bed night after night. Mugs has been my main guy for most of those nights, although lately he’s let it be known that he prefers his own bed. Like all old men, he’s coziest in his own digs, not to mention that he’s grown weary, I’m pretty sure, of my constant tossing and turning and fussing. A dreadfully poor fall-asleeper, I get up and down, up and down so many times before finally conking out that at some point in the proceedings I usually thank goodness that there’s not a man around for whom I’d feel the need to fake bedtime normalcy. Of course, the insistent thought right after that one is that the times there was a man next to me for a sustained number of nights were also the nights I slept longest and best; made still at last.I got Mugsley, who is a white-with-brown spots Jack Russell Terrier, when he was seven years old and at first he wouldn’t stay in the same room with me, much less sleep in my bed. He’d sit by the front door, waiting, like some be-sad-on-cue movie dog, for his owner to come and get him. Mugsley had been raised, and brilliantly trained, by people who knew somebody who knew my friend Libby, who briefly took him in when his owners decided, reluctantly, that they had to give him away. It seemed they had a new grandbaby in the house that Mugsley was snapping at, leading to an ultimatum by the child’s mother that the dog must go or the baby stop visiting. I never met the man who raised Mugsley but I imagine him as a fellow who is freshly surprised from time to time at how very much he misses his dog and who looks then at his grandkid and wonders if the trade-off was worth it, and then chides himself for even having the thought.
I always carefully observe Mugsley around babies and young children and can report that he does indeed snap at them. I think it’s because their movements scare him. In children three or four and under there is little predictability of mind and that makes him nervous — he can’t process their wavy, grabby hands and so he lashes out before they can. Something like that. When we’re out walking and come upon little children, one will almost always ask, “Does it bite?” which I think must be one of the first sentences children learn to speak. I always answer “Yes”, and the kids, quite sensibly, made a wide berth around Mr. Mugs, usually walking backwards, never taking their eyes off him. Don’t try to pick him up either, I could add. A couple of years ago I took him to a party and at one point, with my back turned, I heard my friend Joe ask, “Does he like to be picked up?” and before I could turn and call out a warning, Joe had tried to lift him — always a mistake —and Mugsley bit him on the hand. That’s the one and only time he’s drawn blood, but still…be wary. There’s reason there, too. Mugsley, nearly 15 now, has loose leg joints and arthritis and is always aching, so you have to know where his sore spots are, which isn’t too much different, if you think about it, from having a boyfriend.
In those first months with me, Mugsley slowly made his way down the long hall to the room where we’ve spent most of these eight years, propped up together on my bed, me against pillows and he on my robe at the foot of the bed, which he arranges and plumps up himself with a nudging nose and swiping paw, a process so specific and labored that it never ceases to fascinate and amuse me. Mugsley can’t jump up on the bed anymore, but he can jump off it, although I try now to lift him myself since his hind legs are pretty wobbly. If he jumps off now, he’s liable to limp badly the rest of the day and my heart can’t take that pathetic sight. But it used to be that I had to position the bed in such a way that there was room for him to jump off and make his wild landing — with a legs-splayed slide and a thump against the wall. Apparently, proper bed positioning is an essential component of a dog’s feng shui, a lesson I learned the hard way, years ago, after spending a Saturday afternoon rearranging the bedroom — bed, TV, phone and cable lines — only to discover that it all had to go back because in its new spot there wasn’t room for Mugsley to jump up and down off the bed, and that just wouldn’t do at all. It’s his house, after all; he just lets me room here.
His name, by the way, was originally Pugsley, or so it says on his papers, after the boy in The Addams Family. Somehow, before my time, it became “Mugsley”, a change I’m grateful for because he can also be “Mugs” or “Muggers”, or when it’s just the two of us, alone and private, “The Mugger Man.”Here is what The Mugger Man knows about love: On a hot August night a few years back, I broke up with David, a man I’d come to love, which was a fact I acknowledged to myself, and subsequently, to him, far too late to do any good (“I wish you’d told me this two months ago”). By the night that I made my grand proclamation, and invited David to move in with me, he’d already agreed (he finally informed me) to move in with someone else, a very nice, very rich fellow I’d actually met a time or two and who I knew full well that David was seeing in addition to me. (It was all very modern.) This man, who seemed perfectly decent and who I know adored my guy, had made David — who was on the verge of bankruptcy and whose career was going nowhere and who was forty and terrified — an offer he couldn’t refuse, one that has led, in these intervening years, to world travel, and, presumably, an upgraded credit rating (so who am I to say David was wrong to accept?). Near the end of that long final night David and I were lying atop my bed, sort of wrapped up together — I was sad then, not mad (not yet) and I couldn’t quite let him leave. I started crying, then sobbing, wrenchingly, and then David started crying (he cried all the next day too and isn’t that interesting?), and between us I guess we made quite a racket. While I’d just as soon forget the heart-knotting pain of that night and the time-wasting, regret-filled nights/months/years that followed, the one thing I’ll remember forever is Mugsley, down on the floor, unable to find a spot to jump up onto the bed, going crazy, whining and yelping, craning his head up, trying to get a look, trying to get to me — worried, frantic, mad with loving concern. Mugsley has a painfully loose joint in his left hind leg and at dinner that night I’d been telling David that the vet said Mugs needed $2000 surgery and I couldn’t decide whether to try and raise that. David said that was too much money to spend on a dog, even a great dog (he called Mugsley “Moonpie”). Later, in the midst of all those tears and Mugsley freaking out at the foot of the bed, I turned to David and said, “That’s why you think about spending $2000 on a dog. Because when you’re crying, he comes running.”
What I’ve learned from Muglsey is that love is a never-ending conversation. He and I are always communicating, talking back and forth, keeping an eye on each other, making each other grin. We read the signs, seeing the changes in each other and making the necessary accommodations; trying this, trying that. He keeps me alert and attentive and I think he’s helped keep me alive. Because there was a period, not so very long ago, when I spent a good deal of my day and brain-time devising my exit from this world — I was so sad and so tired of being inside this mind — and I thought I’d come up with a pretty efficient, low-mess way to do it but I couldn’t figure what to do about Mugsley. I could leave instructions for a friend to take him but I knew that Mugsley wouldn’t survive long under a new roof — it’s the well-worn rhythms of our days that keep him going — and I was afraid too that he’d go nuts when the police came (he hates uniforms) and end up in the pound or worse, and while you hear stories about people taking their pets out, along with themselves, I knew I could never do such a thing, and so I stayed, alongside Mugsley — who kept making me smile, when smiling seemed least likely — while I gave more thought to our exit and how best to work it and after a while I noticed that I’d stopped thinking about it. And so here we still are, me and this dog.
“I want to live!”, as Susan Hayward exclaimed, which isn’t to say that I’ve been reborn or am bursting out with happiness. Just last night, I was lonely, bitter and scared, familiar feelings that will very likely return after I walk away from this desk. (Here, such feelings serve me.) Yet, Mugsley still needs me; as do many equally swell humans (I’m lucky in love after all). And sometimes lately, more often than in years really, I get this little flutter in the exact middle of my chest that feels like excitement or anticipation and which isn’t based on anything that can be named or anything that’s just happened or is about to happen. I’m remarkably poor right now, always on the edge of ruin, and I’m still single (relentlessly) and I have absolutely no idea what to do with the rest of my life, not even the next 30 days, and yet…and yet, the little flutter comes anyway. From time to time. My old therapist told me once that I was an optimist but didn’t want to admit it, and wondered what I wanted my life to feel like. I drew a blank at the time, but I think that the feelings that give rise to flutter are the answer to his question. They come when I’m aligned with my universe, when I’m fully present (the hardest trick of all); not watching myself waiting to live, but actually living.
Dogs have a way of keeping you present, because they can’t and won’t fend for themselves for very long. Cats understand that the universe is fickle and that desertion can come at any minute, and so they make a bowl of food last, while dogs gobble it right down, confident that the two-legged giant will soon return to fill it up again. Since I left my full-time job I’m home all the time, and I’ve noticed that on days when I do have work that keeps me out of the house all day, Mugsley won’t eat when I get back, and I realize that he’s rattled and mad at me, as if I’d put a scare into him. I have to woo him back. After eight good years together, the Mugger Man still has abandonment issues.
It’s 3:21 in the morning right now, and I’m writing, and Mugsley’s behind me, curled up on my bed, right in my sleeping spot, which means it’ll be hot when I finally climb in and I hate that, which I think he must somehow know. He knows so many things. I’ll probably wake him up before I crash, which’ll make him growl at me. I’ll carry him into the bathroom, where I keep an extra leash hanging on the towel hook, and I’ll put it on him and set him out the bathroom window, which is at ground level. I’ll lean out and twist my head up to see if there are stars, and he’ll walk to the full extension of the leash, shake himself — which will make his collar jingle — and then he’ll pee, his head slowly turning, trying to spy the neighbor’s cat. The bonus pee I call it and since we’re heading toward dawn, I may give him a bite to eat, too, to tide him over, both things meant to keep him from waking up too early. His human needs sleep. Mugsley and me, we’re getting this livin’ thing down.IN THE MIDNIGHT HOUR
For a man whose dog died just over a week ago, I’m in a surprisingly upbeat mood. Just now, with a good tune spinning on my stereo, I caught myself dancing down the hall. What is this, I wondered, and sat down here to try and figure it out.
Is this betrayal? What’s the proper timeline for wracked, immobile grief and does a goose step of happiness mean I’m already over the loss of my dog Mugsley, who I loved above all things?
Ah, but he loved me too—mightily—and what came to me as I sashayed down the hall is that in having been loved—fully, utterly, purely—I’ve been released. Love is an unbinding, isn’t it? We forget that, don’t we? We get it backwards. We pull love in and out in great gulps, but eventually, we forget to let it out. We try to keep it in, keep it ours, like a lungful of air, fearful I guess that if we let it out it won’t flow right back in. So we begin, in small increments—and then fully, tightly—to hold it in, like a possession—as if love’s breath is a self-generating current and not one that’s a back-and-forth exchange—so of course it ends up seeping out the edges, and the force of it—the flow of it—is lost, confirming our deepest fear. I knew it, we say. But maybe love is really meant to be a continuous pull and release—like a heartbeat. A breath in and then a breath out. Mugsley, struggling so to keep breathing, to keep loving, his eyes boring into mine. As if to say, This, this is the lesson. Look at me. This is what I have to tell you. This is my life’s offering. This impossible breath. The machine has failed, the love has not. Take it, then, and give it right back to me. We’ll keep doing that and it will keep me here. Keep us here. Together together together. The Mugger Man would not give up on “together”.
Grieving is a continuation of loving, and like a fully lived day it can be first one thing and then another. And so I can find myself last night suddenly reduced to hot hot pouring tears at the sight of a puppy on television who looked just like Mugs while tonight I can exult at the song’s beat as I move through my house (his house too; ours). Each action, the tears, the click of my fingers in time to the music, is part of the same thing: I cry because I love and was loved and I dance for the very same reason.
Just now, while getting up from here and walking back down the hall to change the music, I thought, There’s this too: I can dance because he did not abandon me, my Mugs. He did not reject me or outgrow his love for me. He did not replace my love with that of another. My love was enough. My love was plenty. (“Plenty” is a great word, isn’t it?)
All the way to the end it was the only love he wanted, all the love he needed. He believed in it so much that kept breathing even when he knew—when he knew—that it was time—past time—to lay his head down and close his eyes. Mugsley, Mugsley, who loved to sleep, would not sleep in the end. Because he wanted to keep looking at me. I walked into the bedroom at midnight that night and knelt down next to him and placed my hand on his heart and I could feel it slowing down—even now I believe that I heard its faltering beat—and I realized that he was dying. Really dying. Right then. Right in that moment. A being. Dying. In my bed (his bed; our bed). Home from a long day at the doggie cardiologist, newly informed, I’d been wailing for two hours at my new knowledge, at my impending loss. Falling to my knees and keening. For myself. Crying for him but mostly for myself. And when I stopped crying and walked into the bedroom and looked at him—really looked at him—I could see, with more clarity than I’ve ever known, that he was dying. Suddenly it wasn’t about me, it was about him, about what I owed him. And so I dropped to my knees beside him and urged him to close his eyes, telling him that this was the moment to rest; that he’d done his work, that it was okay to sleep, that I’d be alright, that he’d given me all I’d ever need—all those words and phrases we speak to the humans we love when we’re trying to cajole them into releasing their final fierce clench on this world. Kneeling there beside Mugsley I remembered how Linda and I had sat on either side of Karen in her hospital bed a dozen years ago and urged her on, urged her toward that damned light—all that clichéd movie-of-the-week jargon that turns out to be how it really works, or, rather, is the language that comes to us in that moment of truth. The soul clinging tight, the eyes wide with a terrible, terrifying urgency, saying No No I will not go; you need me. Mugsley’s eyes said what Karen’s had said. Mugsley, who’d been dying for days, wouldn’t let go and kneeling there, I knew it was because of me. His eyes staring into mine with ferocious intensity. (Love is ferocious, isn’t it? It’s the bite of a maddened hound.) Mugsley, I’m convinced, believed in that midnight moment, that if he kept his eyes on my face then he’d be able to hang on and that holding on was what was required. He couldn’t imagine anything beyond me, beyond loyalty and love. But I could imagine it—I could imagine release for him; the beauty of it, the rightness of it, and that vision is what I was trying to give him with my eyes.
Mugsley’s eyes, though, that’s what I remember so vividly as I sit here typing. So clear, so wide, you wouldn’t believe it. Holding mine. Saying: I see you. See me. This is what life is, this exchange, from me to you and you to me. This is what we’ve been doing all these years; this is the distillation of all we’ve been together. Mugsley, wanting to give and give and give; give love, just love, because he knew I still needed it, and knew too how much of it I’d given to him. Maybe that’s it. Maybe he was trying to fill me back up, like a transference, a rejuvenation, and maybe that’s why I can dance a little on this night nine days later, because he did it, he succeeded, he filled me back up. Love love love, moving me down the hall tonight, that urgent pulse that for Mugsley, there in that final hour, was stronger and more lasting than any that had ever pumped through the valves and pathways of his earthbound heart.
Debbi Porter said:
I am so sorry and sad for you Peter! Skai will be looking out for you as always. Thank you for sharing him with us! Hugs and love to you!
Debbi Porter said:
I am so sorry and sad for you Peter! Skai will be looking out for you as always. Thank you for sharing him with us! Hugs and love to you!
Suzanne Hunt said:
I don’t even have words, but I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face,. weeping for your loss … and for the loss of all of us who have grown to know andlove Skai through you. The measure of your pain, Dr. Dobias, is the measure of your love. And grief is an individual and personal thing. There is no time limit on that, either. Know that you have a whole world of people grieving with you. We will miss you too, Mr. Skai Wantstofly, <3
Bonnie B said:
This day had to come and you blessed him in every way possible. What a spectacular fellow he was. Rest In Peace, sweet Skai. Take care of yourself, Dr. Peter. You are needed.
Mark Truscinski said:
Dr. D,
I am sorry sorry for your loss, so sad! Your letter brought tears to my eyes!! May God give you strength and healing for the loss of your best friend!
RIP MR. SKAI!!
Sherry said:
So sad to hear of the passing of Skai. No words will help right now, only time will. He will be dearly missed
Donna nickens said:
The love we share with our furry family members never stops, Skai was putting you first even at the time of his calling to the rainbow bridge, that unconditional love kept him going so that he could bid you farewell. Love and devotion between man and dog, nothing compares. We lost a great friend on Good Friday, so thankful we had 12 years with our chocolate nose Cooper and everlasting memories to sustain. Remember always. My heart breaks for you,
Best, donna
Sandra Daley said:
Dr Dobias, I am tearfully writing this sympathy note. I expected Skai to make a good recovery and to continue going on adventures with you. Skai’s passing is a great loss, He was an amazing dog and his spirit will live on forever. My deepest sympathy. ❤
Sherry said:
So sad to hear of the passing of Skai. No words will help right now, only time will. He will be dearly missed
BJ said:
So very sorry to hear of Skai passing , our hearts break for you , what a beautiful letter to your boy, R.I.P. Skai, I hope you can now Fly, sweet little Mr wantstofly
Mary Lou said:
So sorry to hear that, Peter.
I know it’s difficult for you……for anyone to go through the most difficult time.
Although I haven’t met him, but he is forever in my heart. A happy healthy dog, forever!
Yesterday, one of my favorite golden retriever passed away.
He is my dog’s great-grandfather. After I heard that he was not good, I went to visit him immediately and brought him a gift. I didn’t know the second day was his 12th birthday before I set out from my city. So when his owner told me this, I felt so much blessed.
His owner told me that he was not good but from the bottom of my heart I really hoped him could recover, although I knew it was almost impossible.
Then, yesterday, I got the bad news. I have prepared some although, the pain still break my heart. I haven’t recovered yet……
I can feel what all of you feel now. I just want to say something although may cannot really help. I still hope all of you feel better……
With lots of love for Skai and all of you,
Mary Lou
Kathy Herren said:
I am crying my eyes out right now and my heart is broken for you. This is a pain beyond imagination. Many, many people will not forget your precious Skai. I know your heart will never quite be the same, but the precious memories will live on and on. As you remember, there will be moments when you cry, but also moments that you smile or even laugh. Those are now your treasures. Thank you for sharing your letter to Skai. Thank you for sharing Skai with us! He truly was incredible!
Sheila Z said:
So sorry for your loss of Skai. Although new to your newsletters, I felt you had a special bond with Skai. I know it’s hard, if only we could have our pets for so much longer. Keep the good memories you and Skai had together. Every Dog should be so lucky as to have had such good care and life.
Jan Gordon said:
He was so very loved and loved back with all he had. I just lost my 15yr old boy my big red Baby BlueDog. My heart hurts my soul is list right now. I know your pain but never forget he had an amazing and long life filled with love a d doing all the fun things dogs love. Hugs.
Brandi said:
My sweet babes passed away Jan 3 and then Jan 31…I held them both and thought maybe I would die too. I was just having afew tears when I saw your post… we really relied on your vitamins and advice to keep them comfortable in life and I feel like I owe you a debt of gratitude for your knowledge and passion when other vets told me to give up. I’m still shocked to see them missing every morning but man, did they live it up every day they were here. Thanks for that… sending every bit of love and compassion I can muster. Take care.
Connie said:
I am heartbroken to hear this news! Skai is our health Hero! A constant model of living life to the fullest by incorporating natural methods and products! Ruby and I are forever grateful for all of the stories and memories that you have shared about Skai (and his family!) Please, know that you are lited up in prayer by so many that love their dog just as you do Skai! Godspeed, Skai!
Terry Journey said:
Dear Peter, I am heartbroken reading your letter. I just want you to know that I am praying for you tonight. I know, too, that Skai is still with you…and I urge you to keep your heart open so that he may show you, somehow, that he is still there. God bless.
Joy said:
My heart breaks for you, Dr. Dobias! God blessed us with Dogs to love. Your news and then your letter made me sob. I so honor the way you expressed your love, concern, and care for Skai, and also for all of our Dogs. You essentially saved Samson’s, my Dog, life. When we rescued him, we nursed him to vibrant his health, verified by your HairQ test, with your SoulFood, GreenMin, and Gut Sense. You guide us by your incredible articles and training. I prayed for you and will continue to ask God to comfort your heart as you grieve your loss of Skai Wantstofly. Fond memories of him will live in our hearts forever. Good people (that’s you!) are good to their animals.(that’s you, for sure).~ Proverbs 12:10. With tender compassion, ~ Joy
Clare McLaren said:
Peter, my heart breaks for you and with you! Rest his precious and beautiful soul. There are no words I can say and you have said so much so beautifully already, so I send you our love.
Clare, Rob and Beacho
Lynne and Monty said:
My heart is breaking for you. I am so sorry to hear your very sad news. Both Skai and you are in my prayers and thoughts.
I was only telling a friend on Wednesday how wonderful both you and Skai were, strange that you came into my mind on that now very memorable day. I have just read your letter to Skai and it made me cry tears of sadness for your loss but also happy tears for the wonderful life you had together.
Sending you a million blessings. Lynne and Monty (England).
Jane said:
What a beautiful tribute. I have a very elderly girl here who is fading fast …like Mr Skai she has taught me so much and always been there for me.
I keep telling her I am ok now and she can go..but she still has the biggest heart and there are still sausages in the fridge.
We haven’t got long before I make the decision for her and have to let her go. I felt stronger reading your letter and hearing how you made similar decisions, do the same reason.
Carole husein said:
Beautifu tribute from a beautiful man for a beautiful and special friend. RIPLittle man?
Mabel said:
Dear Peter! My condolences ? My heartbroken for you lost and I was reading you letter I wish I can do something for you get better but I know is anything can change how you feel , god blessed you I know Mr.skai he know all what you done for him you love ❤️ him and every way and hi knows that I really sorry I am crying I have my baby boy I can’t imagen live with out him ??
Mabel said:
Dear Peter! My condolences ? My heartbroken for you lost and I was reading you letter I wish I can do something for you get better but I know is anything can change how you feel , god blessed you I know Mr.skai he know all what you done for him you love ❤️ him and every way and hi knows that I really sorry I am crying I have my baby boy I can’t imagen live with out him ??
Jana House said:
Your journey with Mr. Skai is a beautiful bond to be cherished and forever remembered. In your time of grief these fond memories will fill your heart with tears of sadness and joy.
I too cried and held my little dog Lil Bear after reading your letter, it reminds me that one day I too shall travel this path and have to say good bye. It will be the hardest thing I will ever do. Our furry friends give unconditional love something humans have still to learn.
As long as Skai remains in your heart he’ll never be gone. God bless you.
Elena said:
Dear Peter – I, too, had a “Skai,” but her name was Tige and she magically appeared in my life during graduate school in Austin, Texas. She was my first child, best friend, favourite companion who I chose over just about anyone or anything to be with. We moved across the states together and finally to beautiful Canada where, in her old age, she taught me to learn about holistic healing, nutrition just to keep her safe. Her vet called her the soup dog because during her ACL surgery at age 13, I would deliver warm chicken soup that I had simmered on the stove all day. She blew through that surgery like a champ and we had another two years together. She was a large breed – golden retriever-rotti-chow mix based on her blood test. Having her for 15 years was one of the best gifts of my life. I lost her May 13, 2015. I can still remember the cherry tree that was blooming that day and the last birthday party we had for her under the magnolia tree. I wrote a letter to her, like the one you wrote to Skai. It’s now incorporated into a beautiful piece of art that hangs above my bed. I can share the name of the Toronto artist that designed it with me. I still hold the love I have for her very close and I know I will see her again. I wish you peace and thank you for everything that you do to keep our loves on this earth with us for as long as possible. -Elena
Nina said:
I was so shocked when I got the email sad news and somehow I knew. I cried an ocean tonight thinking about my Logan who I had to say goodbye to last month and for some reason thinking about him so much tonight and grieving him. Then to hear the sad news about Mr. Skai, I grew to love him and I grieve with you. Skai is a beautiful soul, his body may be gone but his spirit is with you alway’s. I tell my Logan that I love him every day. You have so many beautiful and cherished memorie’s of Skai. He will always be watching over you. Heart’s and Love sent out to Skai and to you.
Karen said:
Hi Peter, so sad to hear this news and such a beautiful letter that you wrote to him. I didn’t know Skai either but fell in love with him as if he was my own by reading all the lovely things that you shared about your life together. His spirit will continue to be with you and I am sure he will find ways to let you know he is still around. With love and gratefulness for everything he inspired you to do for the love of him and that is now helping millions of other dogs live a healthy and long life as Skai was lucky enough to do……
Sue Hayden said:
So sorry to read your email. The tears were streaming down my face as I read it. Only those who have had the privilege of sharing their life with a special soulmate will understand your loss. Thankyou for sharing Skai with us, he was a very special dog and you are a very special person and we love you for it.
dianne said:
Dear Dr. Peter,
Sorry for your lost, I cried as I thingking of my Mumay (my fighter) she died last April 15,2017, she died due to Chronic kidney Disease. To Skai you are such a great friend and a son, your memories will always be remembered by your family and friends. All dogs go to heaven ??Diana Kopatsy said:
Hi Peter, I have never met you and I have never met Skai and yet as I type this letter my tears are flowing freely. Unusual because as a Naturopath/Homeopath for animal I have seen many beloved pets pass away but I rarely shed a tear. I think that somehow the exceptional bond you had with Skai shone through every post and every comment you made and so I grew to know him and love him. I feel your pain of him passing and hope that by reflecting on the wonderful adventures you shared that you can derive some comfort. I wish you all the best.
Janet said:
Deepest condolences on the passing of your beloved Skai. I know he will be playing happily at the Bridge, whole and healthy, knowing that it won’t be all that long till you are together again. Blessings and Love to you both.
Betty said:
Thank you for the wonderful tribute to Skai. And, thank you for sharing him with us. May he rest in peace. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Kim said:
Dear Doc Peter
I’m so so sorry to hear about Skai, I lost my beloved lab/shepherd Winston in October. He was only 10 1/2 not nearly enough time, he was my best-friend travel partner and protector and I miss him everyday. I still have my golden girl Logan, she just turned 15 which like Skai is pretty amazing since she is also a big dog. I guess we should be so grateful to have had the privilege of dog love, can’t imagine how empty people are who don’t understand the love of animals!
Thank you for sharing Skai with all of us. thank you for all your advice on keeping them healthy, safe and happy.
Again I’m so sorry, you’re in my heart and prayers.
Shirley Heffron said:
Dear Peter,
I am absolutely devastated at reading the sad, sad news this morning about Mr Skai. You have both for so long now brightened up my mornings when I read your blogs, adventures, and invaluable information. You have both been an inspiration to me and my 2 Shar-pei children in Cambridge,England and through tears now I am going to pray for you both and look to the future when you will both be re-united. God bless you both.
Terry Redmond said:
I am so very sorry to hear this news. It breaks my heart knowing how painful this parting is. I lost my beloved Rupert a year and a half ago and it ripped my heart out. I too was faced with the inevitable decision of easing his pain. He like Skai had lived a long, wonderful life and he was intertwined with mine in all ways. I still expect to see him some days as he’s always in my thoughts.Holding your sad heart in love Dr. D as you go through this most painful time.We all love and appreciate you.❤
Panilla said:
Dear Peter
Sharing your love for Skai is such a reminder of how we can have our heart touched. I know that love so well and Boy it makes you grow in all sorts of ways. Thank you for being there and for sharing your love with the world and for your love of one another. Know how this love carries on and shines on to others. Thank you Skai and Peter and thank you for all your inspiration and love.
Pete Dettori said:
Please accept my deepest condolences. Whenever you lose a friend, the wound hurts deeply – especially when it’s fresh. However, look forward to the days when you think of Skai and all you feel is joy without pain; they will come, sooner than you think.
Nancy said:
I’m so sorry to hear the heartbreaking news that Skai has passed. You were truly blessed to have had such a wonderful companion. And Skai was blessed to have had you. You gave him a wonderful life. I have no doubt that he is still there with you in spirit and still looking out for you. My deepest condolences. Sending comforting thoughts and love your way…
Nancy, Chelsea and Harley
Darlene said:
My love and thoughts are with you in your loss. Thank you Skai for teaching you dad to be such a great vet and teacher.
Kajsa said:
So sorry for your loss. I love to follow your updates but this time it is heartbreaking.
Thank you for all your work to help us do the very best for our dogs.
One of my dogs is named Sky so it’s special for me that your dog had the same name and will always have that name.
I and my family experienced many times that our dogs who passed over in some way still are close to us and I’m sure you will feel the same with Skai. I wish there were more vets like you and that you were not so far away from me and my dogs in Sweden. Sending love, light and healing thoughts to you and your family
Kajsa, Sky and Tracy in Sweden
Kajsa said:
So sorry for your loss. I love to follow your updates but this time it is heartbreaking.
Thank you for all your work to help us do the very best for our dogs.
One of my dogs is named Sky so it’s special for me that your dog had the same name and will always have that name.
I and my family experienced many times that our dogs who passed over in some way still are close to us and I’m sure you will feel the same with Skai. I wish there were more vets like you and that you were not so far away from me and my dogs in Sweden. Sending love, light and healing thoughts to you and your family
Kajsa, Sky and Tracy in Sweden
Cheryl said:
Rip MR Skai.I will miss hearing about your adventures.
Dr. Peter my condolences to you and your family. Mr.skai is not in pain anymore and still with you in spirit.
Sue said:
Both you and Skai are blessed to have had each other. Although no longer physically with you he will never leave your heart. Thank you for sharing the love of your life with us.
Josephine said:
I fully understand the feeling. No words can ease your pain. My heart and prayer are with you & your family. I am sure Mr Skai is bouncing like it’s old self at the other end of Rainbow bridge, waiting for the reunion in the years to come. God bless
Deb said:
I am sitting on my couch reading this crying my eyes out. My Zoe who is 18 is in my lap. I fear the day when she leaves me but I know I will make the decision also when it is time. I’m so sorry for your loss of Skai but how truly blessed you both were to have each other. He’s running across the Rainbow Bridge and he will patiently wait til you are together again.
Michelle said:
Skai was a beautiful dog with a truly Beautiful spirit that shines out in your photos in your words of him. I am sorry for your loss but grateful for dog owners like you that truly love and appreciate their canine family members. I hope you find peace soon in your lovely memories of Skai.
Valerie said:
So,so sorry. I also lost my dog Sidney a few short weeks ago so know exactly what you are going through.
Dianne said:
My love and prayers and with you Dr. Peter in the loss of your beautiful best friend Skai! Such a deep loss of such a beautiful love!!! Now gone in the physical but forever with you!!!!
Beverly Albright said:
I am so sorry to hear of your loss of Skai. I’ve been there many times and know the deep pain. Skai is at peace now and no longer in pain. Remember him as he always was and still is in Gods care.
Marie Dalzell said:
Dr. D, my heart is breaking for you. I have no words that can take away your pain but know that we are all sharing in it with you.
Carmen Hernandez said:
I am so sorry for your loss. As I was reading your story my heart was breaking. I know what it’s like to loose a fury friend and companion. I pray Sakai is in doggy heaven with my baby free from disease and full of health and joy. My prayers are with you and your family through this difficult time. It is Not easy and in my experience you don’t get over it you just learn to go on. Please know that You and Skai affected the lives of so many in so many positive ways and isn’t that what we are here for? God bless you all always – Carmen
Jodi Pirozzi said:
Sending love your way. Not easy I know first hand. The only thing that got me through it is tell yourself we had THE TIME OF LIVES!! Be well! Your the Best! Xo
Tracy said:
What love you shared. He knew he was safest when with you. Truly your lives were blessed to have been shared….and to have made a difference in this world together. I share your tears and heavy heart. Your souls will be together forever.
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arlesieinne said:
Dr. Dobias, my heart goes out to you. What a tragic accident for poor Skai, and I sit here crying and praying for you both. The pictures of Skai are just beautiful! I am so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your stories of Skai with us all.
Jory Smith said:
Typing this through tears for you and your handsome boy . Fly on the wings of angels sweet Skai and thank-you Dr. D for sharing your boy with all of us. Much love, Jory
Nina Schwartz said:
Our deepest condolences to you & your family on Skai’s passing. You both have been an inspiration & help to many dog owners & their families. ?
Kathy Renneisen said:
I am so very sorry for your loss. I know Skai had the most wonder life with you. I know your heart is broken. Please accept my deepest sympathy. Remember all your wonderful times together.
Rosemary said:
I am crying my eyes out right now after reading this news….I fear the day when one of my 3 chihuahuas passes over the rainbow bridge. They have literally saved my life. 10 years ago I was a hopeless alcoholic and drug addict. I thought a dog could help. How little did I know how they could change my life. They give me purpose so I understand how Skai changed your life! My thoughts and prayers are with you! I don’t know you but I feel like we are kindred spirits…..
kelley said:
Im sorry for your loss as im crying over it too i can relate.. skye inspired you and your work and all of us .. thank you skye and thank you dr for sharing skye with the world .. his memory and your work will continue to live on .. in those ways he will never die
Joy Nuttall said:
My LACY’S Bryte Light was born 6/10/01 and I had to let her go 3/20/17. Bryte was thes best dog in my long dog life and when I read about Skai, it was like reading about My Brytie girl. Bryte was 2 months shy of her 16 th birthday when she was injured and she never recovered. Like you I thought my Bryte would rally as she had done many times and as Border Collies often do. But like Skai, the light had gone out of her always bright and shinning eyes.Bryte and Skai must have been two of the very best Border Collies that ever walked this earth. I had a dream that Bryte was not with the other dogs at Rainbow Bridge and when I asked where she was, St Peter replied “She was so special that God chose her as his own dog” Now God has a red and a black and white magnificent Border Collie by his side!
Sheri Abreo said:
Love and Light to You and Yours ???❤️
Karen said:
Peter
You let your boy live his life purpose with joy. There is no better gift for you and for all who knew him. He is eternal.
Namaste.
Michelle said:
I’m so sorry. And my heart hurts. Thank you Skai, What a wonderful life and purpose. Your dad has done and will continue to do great things with his purpose because of you. You’re still here….just a little different than we’re used to. Sending much love.
Nancy Jo Krueger said:
I am so sorry to hear about Skai Wantstofly’s passing. I am sure he is flying free now fueled by all the love you gave to him while he was here with you. He was such a special dog and I know he made you special. It will be hard to think of you without him. I am so sorry for your loss. I am thinking about you.
Maggie said:
So sorry to hear of the lose of your best friend Skai, I can’t imagine the pain you’re going through, I don’t know what I would do if I lost my Connor. He is my closest and dearest friend and I know skai was yours as well. You will always have the beautiful memories you shared with skai and that he couldn’t have had a better dad and friend.
Karen said:
I am so very sad to hear of your loss. Tears run down my face as I read your letter. It brings memories of dogs that have past in my life (4). Another wonderful soul has passed over the rainbow. Our thoughts are with you.
Janice Lightfoot said:
I am so sorry for your loss! It’s never easy to lose a loved one and a best friend! He had a wonderful life that was filled with adventures, fun, and most of all love. He is now “FREE” of illness, pain and is once again running free and happily! Rest in piece Mr. Skai! Sending prayers to you, Dr, D and your family for comfort and strength! With deepest sympathy!
Sylvia said:
I am so sorry and I already new it happened when I thought of Skai I felt his spirit. Tears came to me when I saw the subject of your email It’s heart wrenching, you gave him a wonderful life and through him you are helping us keep our beloveds healthy for as long as possible
Christine said:
I am so heartbroken for you. I know from following you how much you loved Skai. You gave so much to each other. I will miss seeing his adventures. I am so very sorry for your loss. Rest easy Skai, xo. .
Kelly said:
Dr. D – I am so sad for you now and my boy Charlie and I will take a little extra long walk today for you both. Your letter was amazing and so clear for the pain you are enduring. I listened to what you wrote and all I can say is My Heart breaks for you at this time and we will keep you I your prayers knowing Skai is so much more than loved… he is now running again with no pain and waiting to see you again someday too… hang in there – much love and hugs from Prospect, KY
Trudy said:
My tears fall and my heart breaks for you. You and Skai are true doggie health ambassadors.I think you should call the doggie airline section Skai Class instead if First Class!He will always be with you ❤
Trudy said:
My tears fall and my heart breaks for you. You and Skai are true doggie health ambassadors.I think you should call the doggie airline section Skai Class instead if First Class!He will always be with you ❤
Brenda Brady said:
Peter, I am deeply sorry for your loss. I know that in a time like this there are no words that can bring true comfort but just know that you have so many people thinking of you and mourning with you. Losing a pet is losing a part of the family and the only thing that can heal that pain is time. These animals find a way into our hearts, snuggle in there, and stay forever! Nothing will ever take away the awesome adventures, lessons you learned, or naps you took together. Those memories will live on forever.
Sending you lots of hugs and prayers in this difficult time from South Carolina.
Trudy said:
My tears fall and my heart breaks for you. You and Skai are true doggie health ambassadors.I think you should call the doggie airline section Skai Class instead if First Class!He will always be with you ❤
Chris Grayling said:
Sharing your loss with understanding and tears.
Liz said:
Be well and strong! I have lost so many friends over the years………I will not write that I know what you are feeling……we are all so very different!.
I did not want to turn on the computer this morning …now I know why! There are many of us who love you and grieve with you…..let the tears roll but be strong!
Rose Christine Simon & Puppet said:
Oh! Dear Dr. Dobias…what a beautiful from the heart letter you have now blessed all of us with. I thank you truly for sharing what has to be so genuinely and deeply painful.; so much love Dr. Dobias and it reaches out with your very words. Phew.
I’d rather now imagine my Pooh Bear ,and so many other dogs you Dr. Dobias and precious Mr. Skai Wantstofly have helped , gathered there at the very gates of Heaven to welcome “home” a “friend”……
Pooh Bear left me on Monday, May 15, 2017 and Skai you on May 17, 2017 .. I feel your sadness & your tremendous ‘love’ in every word you share and actually Dr. Dobias I see ‘your’ beautiful ‘spirit’ as you write of Skai; there seems truly a " oneness " you and Skai, and isn’t that so very amazing & special ! I know.!.oh yes I do.! Oh, thank you so much for sharing your ‘heart’ & such tremendous love with us. Your words flow from your very heart & soul & are so very moving…so very lovely. Well Dr. Dobias , you named this precious companion and friend Skai Wantstofly and buess what……. NOW HE CAN ! : – )
Your photo’s are so precious …always have been Dr. Dobias.
So I say : “Hey” Mr. Skai Wantstofly – Fly high now, fly high – do me a favor and take my Pooh Bear along ? : – )
Blessing, Peace and JOY Dr. Dobias from Rose & Puppet
Robin said:
My deepest condolences ???
Carol Guenzel said:
I am so very sorry for your loss of your beautiful friend, Skai. I so enjoyed the stories of your adventures together. I can only say that I hope your loving memories of Skai bring you comfort and help ease your loss.
Lee said:
I read your lovely tribute to Mr. Skai with tears streaming down my face.
You see, I also lost my Johnny on he 23rd of April. The day after his 14th birthday.
I knew Johnny could not walk very well because his hind end was weak. I gave him glucosamine and chrondrotin, but it didn’t help, also other supplements to try and keep him healthy.
He was the first born in a litter of seven.
He was the first to do everything in his litter, Open his eyes, bark, go up and down the steps.
We had so many adventures together. We went to classes, then to dog shows. He was a true Champion.
He loved his treadmill which we called his jog-a=dog he would exercise most every day till he got older.
I knew it was time to say good bye, but he still wanted to eat till the very end.
When we said good by, he was surrounded by everyone in our family.
I still miss him so much.
My heart goes out to you on the loss of your Mr. Skai.
Gloria said:
What a lovely letter to your best friend. Hugs and prayers for your family—this is just something that no words can fully express. Remember all your great times together.
Michael Kane said:
Dear Peter…
I feel I know you from all that you have done for my Kobi and me. You simple saved his life for us a year ago and we have been together for 12 years.
I also have been worried about Kobi all this time. But some how you have been there each week with a little bit of knowledge for us all to keep on heading into healing.
It was July last year when I started taking your advice and using my intuition to help Kobi be an older dog in a younger dog world.
I hope you will settle with this and Skai moving on. He knows a different place now and he is watching over you. Like a guardian angel
My deepest feelings go to you and your hearts pain.
Im sure Skai got you through years that you might not have gotten through with out him. I send you love and healing and use each memory you recover to help heal your loss.
As your friend. Michael
Katherine said:
My heart is breaking along with yours! I saw this letter first thing this morning and I started bawling like a baby and I immediately gave my fur-baby and big hug! I have suffered through that pain before and it never completely goes away – just gets somehow tolerable. My prayers for you and your family for heart-healing! The pictures you have posted show a lucky boy – traveling all over and having a "fun"tastic life. He was so blessed to have you as his father, and you were blessed in return to have such a loving son!
Bernadette Postle said:
We all feel your pain. My hero dog died a few weeks ago. The love of a dog that gives us joy is the same love that breaks the heart.
Susan Dutcher said:
I lost my dog in Aug. What a blessing we receive with the gift of love from our dogs. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thanks for all your postings.
Josie said:
I’m so sorry for your loss, Dr. Dobias. We share in this pain of losing Skai, even though we’ve not met – it still runs deep, tears flow and my heart goes out to you. Everyday we see Skai’s lovely face adorn the bottles of supplements we feed our little Mona and just seeing him in pics inspires us to be healthy, connected and joyful! Thank you immensely dearest Skai for being the brilliant, blessed human-dog who taught us to be better. RIP sweet boy. Furever in our hearts. #skaiwantstofly
Gina Hall said:
Thank you for sharing this precious time with your faithful friend with us. I really appreciate it as it has made me aware of what is important while we still have our fluffkids with us. So sorry for your loss. Big hugs from South Africa. XXX
lynn contant said:
dearest peter and skai
he will rest in your heart and the memories will be peaceful. grief is like the tide, it comes in plants a kiss on the shore the rolls back to the sea. see peter, skai was given to you to teach you learn time for him to leave. another pup will be in your live to teach again.
i breed vizslas, pups on the ground now, and i only would want puppy owners to love my pups for their lives as i do.
think good things he is with you
lynn
Cleo said:
I am deeply sorry for Skai departure and glad you two got to spend some time before. sending you all my love from my heart to you and your family.
Deise de Oliveira said:
What a touching letter…it made me cry. At least you have all these great memories and you know that he had a great life.
Michelle said:
I am so very, very sorry for your loss. Thank you Skai and thank you doctor for all the knowledge you have shared, for all the fun photo’s and adventures. Skai brought joy to all of us and we all have heavy hearts today. Sharing in your loss and wishing you comfort Dr. D.
Lisa Genson said:
Dr. D, Thank you for loving Skai. He knows you’re missing him and he’ll never be far from your side. Talk to him & be comforted by that. Smile when you think of the gifts he gave you & how he helped you become a better human. My deepest condolences.
Angela said:
I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet friend. What a beautifully written letter of your shared memories. I will keep you in my prayers. I remember how hard it was when I lost my Sophie to a heart attack at her vet’s office several years ago. A routine procedure that went awry. It was so painful for a season. But when I think of her now, I can laugh and smile at our sweet memories and am so grateful for our time together. I believe our dog friends are precious gifts from God. They love us unconditionally and remind us daily to slow down and live in the moment. My heart hurts for your loss, but I hope you find peace in the precious gift of all the years you had with Mr. Skai. ♥♥
Sharon said:
I am so saddened and sorry for your loss. Mr.Skai waited for you, to let you know he would be okay and it was time for him to “fly”. Thank you for sharing him with us for all these years.
Sherry said:
This is the bravest and most heartwarming tribute to a cherished family member. I’m crying buffalo tears because I know how much it hurts and my senior dog will one day be in this situation. I’m not sure I can be so brave. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time.
Barbara said:
Heartbreaking. My deepest condolences on Skai’s passing. May cherished memories of your time together bring you comfort and peace.
Blaine said:
Our companions are always there for us. Unfortunately, the only time they have to be absent is when they end their journey. We become so dependent upon their presence that they become our shadow and it seems so strange when we look down and they are no longer there. I lost my own rescue dog, a lab-retriever, by the name of Velvet just two years ago. It is funny because although I still miss her, I look at a photograph or a memory comes to mind and she can still bring a smile to my face. That is part of their everlasting gift to us. Namaste and my thoughts are with you and Skai.
Tilly said:
Dear Dr. D,
Kindest thoughts, sympathy, empathy and condolences for the loss of beloved, cherished, wonderful Mr. Skai Wantstofly.
The two of you have been extraordinary role models and mentors. Thank you, for sharing extensive knowledge, compassion, humor and your adventures with us. Charming, intelligent, debonair Skai will be greatly missed.
Its been said our previous dog helps us find our “next dog.” If this is true, there are glorious adventures waiting for you.
May fond memories, God, and time help mend and heal your broken heart. Sympathy, empathy, kindest thoughts and love. .. ~Tilly
Joyce Rolfe said:
So so sorry for your loss. So terrible when your dogs life has to be cut short by someone swinging a heavy suitcase. People really need to be more careful. Your dog passed on my chows 1st birthday. I will remember the date your best friend died.So glad you made it home and he waited for you to get there. So sorry ;((
Liz Timbit Sammi said:
Oh my that is so heart breaking but you and Skai are bonded always and for that we are thankful that you both brought us tears, laughter and joy and kindness. My thoughts are with you. LOVE LOVE LOVE to you both.
Rhonda said:
You were a loving dad and how lucky he was. My prayers to you and your family
Beth said:
I’m so sad for your loss! What a lovely tribute! It’s so, so hard to lose any dog but especially those who are really special, so have that extra sparkle. Many of us have been there. Thinking of you and sending love and positive thoughts during this difficult time.
Lolita said:
With my deepest sympathy Dr. D. Thank you for sharing your life with your amazing dog Skai. Loved the pics.
Nancy wallace said:
I am so sorry to hear about your precious Mr. Skai Dr. Dobias. You were such an awesome Dad to him. You are in my thoughts and prayers
Bev Finlay said:
Dear Peter,
Your letter was wonderful and truly from the heart. I know as many dog lovers do, how difficult losing a pet can be. I lost a beautiful chocolate lab Molly, at six years old, she died in my arms, it took me months to get over the loss and to this day I still miss her. We do have another lab and she is wonderful but the memories of Molly linger and I will never forget her. She was my soul mate as Skai was yours. How wonderful to have spent all those years of full life together. You are blessed to have had him and he to have you. I have something special for you that I have shred with bereaving pet owners.
The Rainbow BridgeThere is a bridge connecting Heaven and Earth.
It is called the Rainbow Bridge because of its many colours. Just this side of the Rainbow Bridge, there is a land of meadows, hills and valleys with lush green grass.
When a beloved pet dies, the pet goes to this pace.
There is always food and water and warm spring weather. The old and frail animals are young again.
Those who are maimed are made whole again.
They play all day with each other.
There is only one thing missing: They are not with their special person who loved
them on Earth. So, each day they run and play until the day comes when one suddenly looks up! The nose twitches. The ears are up. The eyes are staring. And, this one suddenly runs from the group.
You have been seen and when you and your special friend meet, you take him or her in your arms and embrace. Your face is kissed again and again. You look once more into the eyes of your trusting pet.
Then you cross the Rainbow Bridge together, never agin to be separated.
Janet said:
As I read about Skai I thought this is almost my story. I’m so sadden with the lose. I lost my sweet Santis in April. It is so hard to let go. You see the eyes, knowing, they know it’s time. I know exactly how you feel. We did everything to keep her here a little longer. We knew it was time, but couldn’t let go!! We miss her so much, we look for her, call her name to tell her it’s time to go outside!!
We had her for 15 years, beautiful teeth,still had that Husky spunk!!
We were up with her all night holding and hanging on to her for the last time! We decided we had to stop being selfish and let her go!!
My heart goes out to you.
Sharon W said:
I"m so sorry, my heart is broken with you. For Skai to live such a long, healthy life to have it cut by that handler’s carelessness just makes me so angry. Thank you both for all that you have taught us and prayers and hugs to you as you recover from this great loss.
Patti said:
What a beautiful tribute to Skai, My love goes out to you and your family, I understand your grief all to well. Skai will always be with you and us too. I will be thinking of you and praying that your heart will mend. Thank you and thank you Skai for everything you have done for all of us.
Joni said:
I am so so sorry for your loss! This made me cry. ? Such a tragic loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Natalie Rublik said:
I am so shocked and sorry for your loss. I had read earlier about Skai’s head injury but thought he was improving. I know how much he meant to you. I have lost a few dogs and know it is always hard. Take care of yourself.
Natalie
Jamie said:
Tears flowing and my heart aches for you and your family. I pray that all the joy and memories will help with your healing. Skai was such a wonderful companion and will continue to live on through you and your work. Much love being sent ??
Lauren said:
Sending lots of love and healing vibes. I lost my beloved Porkchop February 22nd, barely 3 months ago. Hopefully they are playing together. You have so many lovely photos and memories.
Karen said:
Such a beautiful letter and a beautiful life. I’m so sorry for your loss.
Angela Jensen said:
My heart goes out to you. I lost my beloved friend and companion on 4-26-17. Dogs don’t have lessons to learn here on earth. They are naturally good hearted, so their stay on this earth is brief.
Tina Ballestrasse said:
Dear Dr. D.
My heart is breaking with yours and I am so very sorry that your beautiful Skai has gone on. Your letter perfectly honors Skai’s life with you. What an amazing life he had, giving you such joy, companionship and love. I am crying as I write this, crying for you and also because I know all too well the heartbreaking loss of losing a dog that was my constant source of love, comfort, joy and fun, a dog that loved everyone and in turn was loved by so, so many.
Take all the time you need to heal. But having said that, know that your heart will always grieve for a dog, a soul, so amazing. We go on, but are never quite the same. For all the help and love you give, praying it comes back to you to help you through this time. With deepest sympathy, Tina (along with Cappi and Carlie and our Angel in heaven, Roscoe)
Dana said:
I am so sorry for your loss, i know the feeling of dread and grief you are feeling, it’s a horrible pain. I pray for comfort for you.
Andrea said:
I’m so sorry for your loss of Skai dog. Your story brought me to tears, as I can relate to helping your best friend and heart dog pass. It’s by far the hardest thing we have to go through in life. Take comfort in knowing you gave him the best possible life, and hold onto all the wonderful memories. Memories with my boy help get me through the day. Take care Dr. D.
Suzanne Bielak said:
All the dog lovers of this world feel the heart wrenching pain you are experiencing. Rest in Peace beautiful Skai – you have been and will continue to be a wonderful addition to this world of ours. God bless Peter and his family-we know how you feel – there are no words. Our best wishes for your recovery and for finding peace with the passing of your best buddy.
Lori said:
Oh Peter, W/tearful eyes, I’m sooo sorry for the loss of your beloved Skai~Sooo thrilled u were able to b right there just like Shai wanted before resting n peace~Shai hung on until u got home which is sooo special
Vera said:
Grieving for you, so sorry you lost Skai when he was still so full of life! Prayers for healing and moving on, I feel your hurt.
Princess said:
My heart sank to the lowest it has ever been when I saw the subject line in my email box “With deep sadness and broken heart” because I knew then the worst had happened. I could no longer see from crying after I read your long letter to Skai. I am so sorry for your loss. Dogs are our best friends, our children, our soul mates and to lose one is beyond what a non-dog person could understand. You are still blessed though for the amount of time you had with Skai. It was meant to be and now he will forever rest in his creators hand. My prayers are with you.
Dina said:
Sam said:
The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And Skye must follow, if he can,
Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then? I cannot say.
Tina said:
I am so very sorry for your loss. Tears are streaming down my cheeks as I read this. So many of us know this heart wrenching pain and we grieve with you. These wonderful creatures are spirits of love who teach us how life should truly be lived and their love is so pure. Your words to Skai are truly beautiful and how lucky